Oracle cards never cease to amaze me. They are my daily guiding light and sometimes it is a floodlight. Like today. Have you ever had that naysayer always harping on the past you and how you could never do this, you failed at it all the time, it's too late, poor you, you'll never change, etc? Just when you've worked hard on changing your story, taking the positives, learning from the failures and now you've set out on a new adventure. What a punch in the gut, a deer in the headlights, how did that get so side-tracked, get so side-ways in a blink of an eye when I was only asking for some confirmation & constructive advise for moving forward? Has that ever happened to you?
Here's where it gets interesting and this is what I learned mainly about myself - surprise surprise! Doesn't it usually come down to you? I reached for my Wisdom of the Oracle deck www.colettebaronreid.com and asked "What do I need to know about this situation?" Here's where it gets interesting and this is what I learned mainly about myself - surprise surprise! Doesn't it usually come down to you?
Basically I've been banging my head against a wall expecting a different reaction from he/she who is only going to parrot his/her belief system & project it on to me. It's only taken 20 years to realize this but as I always say "better late than never". Did I really expect a different reaction? I have actually been torturing myself while he/she is perfectly fine with his/her "perfect way of thinking" (perception). These red flags have been waving in my face for so long and here I was thinking he/she would change! All along it was me denying that I was the one seeking his/her approval. The need to please. I could go on about that one too but let's play this one out.
Now I know he/she is not the person to bounce my ideas off of and that's fine. I can radically accept that. There are so many great things to share and to be grateful for. I also know that I am not an island and will need to ask for help. The door is wide open now for the right people to come through. Instead of me blocking or resisting the help I hoped he/she would give me and the approval of me, I am now free to let someone else come in that may be way more helpful. That is a very freeing, empowering feeling. Instead of feeling small by giving my power away I can now stand firmly on the foundations I have been building.
Foundations have been built as I have grown and expanded. They have my sparkling intention imbued in their very foundation. I am keeper of my dreams. Own Your Dream. I really feel that now deep in my cells, in my soul.
Now my next right actions are to relax and get back to my flow and to remember I am not doing this alone. I am in partnership with Spirit, that conscious universe, the source or what ever name you chose to identify that higher source. I found the approval and it's not in someone else. It's discerning who is helpful and supportive in the particular situation you need guidance in. It's in my heart and soul through Spirit co-creating with me.
Be curious. Move on. Be you.